Saturday, May 10, 2014

My Hidden Feelings

It's been more than one and half years since I last updated my blog...initially this blog is meant for myself alone...and here I am today to express some hidden feelings that I couldn't share with anyone, not even my beloved ones...

I have lost my mother in law recently and I knew how hard it is for my husband to lose his loved one as I've been through the same feeling when I lost my dad...I knew times needed for you to recover from this deep scar and I'm always there for you...I just hope that you can come out from that little space of your own where everything else doesn't matter to you anymore, including me...

While you are living in that little space of your own, you have left everything behind...I'm the one who is taking care of all those small little things and at the same time, I need to face new challenge in my new position as well...I just wish that we can support each others to walk through this hardship...sharing is caring...

Be tough in this moment...maybe my advise is not useful to you, maybe you feel like I don't give a damn, maybe you feel like I have put an end to your mum, maybe you feel the distance between you and me, maybe it's better for me to leave you alone, maybe I'm a burden to you, maybe I'm not the full score daughter in law...there are so many maybe which is running wild in my brain recently...I want to get rid of all these and I knew I can...sooner or later...

The most important thing for me now is that I hope we can hold on to each other and grow old together no matter how hard the time is, love is all we need and all we have is love...