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updates updates...great news on pay nee's little space of mind...

20070407-20070408

went back to perak for "qing ming"..."qing ming" is for chinese to remember their ancestors
by cleaning up the graveyards and carry out some sort of praying...this is considered as one of the celebration as this culture is to be passed on from one generation to another...this year, i did something extraordinary, i had taken some photos...

~~~~~great grandma, grandma and grandpa~~~~~

cant you see there is something special on this photo? (i can see a dragon, how about you?)


nah...how about this? (one of the cow is trying to show off by doing something private in public, hehe...)


another special one is this, my aunty's backyard...you wont be able to link all these photos together as you wont be able to imagine how could this little backyard have all types of awesome hidden flowers...(my aunty herself surprised as well when i show all these photos to her...enjoy...)



20070411

this was my last workday in lenovo...i have prepared some handmade gifts for my lovely colleagues, however i forgot to invite them as models for my camera...unable to show off...hehe...i really felt reluctant to leave all my colleagues...i never would have expect that they did so much for me on that day...received a lot of my favourite piggies and a nice anklet...had a fabulous coffee session at 1u...had scrumptious lunch at asean foodhouse as well as tgi friday 1u...had a enjoyable tea time session at rn...had a piggies artboard at my workstation (thanks to bone bone fish)...and last but not least...had a wonderful photo session...i must have done something right to deserve all these...billion thanks to you guys...







i missed out one important thing, i received one special certificate...content as below:

This is to certified that Miss Ng Pay Nee has completed the hell training in prison company Lenovo on April, 11th 2007.

You may leave...the heaven's door is open for you

All the best to you and your future
miss you a lotz

the certificate was created using piggies...they even organized a ceremony for me to receive that...creative isnt it?

20070414

now this was my luckiest day in funfair...my 1st and ever funfair time with my dear...i been to funfair for countless time, however, this was the 1st time i been there with my dear boyfriend...i have won a medium-size cute piggy with only 10 bucks...am goddamn lucky...hehe...


cute...isnt it?

[ empty ] + [ empty ] = ???

would i be able to clear a little space in the corner of my mind to be my own writer and create my own storyboard with fancy little stories full with sole happiness, with no burdens, no worries to represent the greatest metaphor of my life? one min ago, i go through a blog, about greatest story ever...there will never be one same greatest story in our lifes, different perceptions planted in our minds, or should we arrange in sentence like this "the greatest story ever does not exist"...once, really believe in bedtime stories... "the prince and the princess live happily forever and ever"... wow...forever and ever...impressive even i knew it is fake though...noticed that i have granted the permission for the environment to influence me...always thought that adaptable would be the best word for myself, guess not anymore when i can feel the dependency crawling out from deep down inside my soul, trying to put all the blames on others, not being considerate, curse all the time, mumbling on all the small matters, where is the optimistic me? pls let go of me, pessimistic...i want the old me back...seems like i demand more and more every now and then...but guess am not that dedicated...i have lost my faith in me...i have lost my hope...my rainbow has become hologram...where is my 7 colors...my direction is so complicated now, there is no turning of right, left, up and down...where should i place myself...is someone out there to guide me through all these horrible illusions...***SALVATION***

about love

if everything can be that rational and always another solution to choose...life would be easier...this is one of the song frm MCR that i like the most...go through the lyrics then you'll know why...

When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you Like I did Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you Like I did Yesterday"
Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you Yesterday